Haven't blog for like years. Midterms comes to an end and I'm not really confident of what I did in the exam week. I feel like I messed my exams because of my time management and my mood. I've been feeling not so good lately. I feel like I've got more important things to do but instead I end up and doing it later because I have something else to do which is ironic because I have nothing else to do but watch TV series, eat, and sleep.
I feel like I'm always tired. Tired of my life, tired of everything. The past few weeks has been really hard for me. There was a time when I got measles and my I just can't stop scratching my body because it's really and the fever just keeps coming back and I had to take my medicine late because there's no stock of the doctor's recommended medicine in our area so I had to buy it near the school.
And then came the storm which made me even more lazy but thank God I recovered before going to school again. I really don't want to fail in any of my subjects because it's hard to repeat it all over again and I've put a lot of work into getting what I had in the Prelims. I'm such a mess. One minute I'm up, the next I'm nowhere to be found. I'm just hoping and praying for the best.
I feel like I disappointed my parents so much. This always happens. A lot. They have been working so hard and what I did is I let all my issues swallow me. Its not even about me anymore. Its about them. Everytime I show them my grades I want them to know that I earned every points of it. Know I'm not so sure about my performance. This whole "your a senior thing" also makes me weak also.
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