Prelims are officially over and Christmas is very fast approaching. I can't believe I lost track of time. It's because I've been busy studying for the past few weeks. I couldn't believe it's almost Christmas! I don't know but I just don't like spending Christmas not until I figured I'm broke and I know that gifts aren't the essence of Christmas. It's just that, I don't know but I'm not yet in the mood to celebrate it at all.
I just want to sleep, read a book, eat, have a massage. I wanna go on a vacation, a real one. I just want to get these things that are messing with my mind. I mean, I've been really working hard and I think I deserve a break. Unfortunately, my friends can't accompany me because they also have with them their families so they're busy preparing for the occasion.
It's just so sad that even though I'm in college, I've been wanting to have our Christmas Party but it turns out it's not gonna happen. I just wish that I'm still in High School or Elementary just to have that kind of Party, where all is happy eating food, giving gifts, exchanging their "Happy Holidays". It's just sucks that I'm here at home all along, not wanting to go to any public places because people are gathered.
I kinda don't want to be seen at the moment. It's so frustrating. I don't even know what to do with my attitude. I wanna get drunk and just relive the moment of being drunk, again and again. I guess I'm just so desperate because all I wanted was somebody that will care for me despite the busy schedule of everyone. I just want that.
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